Life is a crazy thing... Things you never know could be possible always have a way of appearing at the most opportune times... Its weird how this thing called life works... A few months ago I was jobless, carless, in a "like-less" relationship, and just altogether feeling hopless.... I didn't know where I was going to live or what the next few months would hold. I honestly felt like my world was absolutely coming to an end. Everyone kept syaing I would look back at that time and laugh... I couldn't imagine that day back then; nor did I realize it would come so soon... But I'm there now. :-) I have my job back. I'm not sure how it happened, but long story short it involves seeing my district manager at the club... Haha but however it happened, all that matters is that it did. I now have a 2003 Honda Accord that I absolutely love. Never in a million years did I think I'd actually get this car. I know it sounds silly, but I have always loved this car and I don't too much get what I want... Lastly, I'm out of my relationship... Its sort of bitter-sweet because I don't know that I'll ever love someone with that much intensith or passion. I'm just not sure that anyone can ever know me that well again. He knows what I think before I do... And vice versa. He and I just aren't the same people that we were before... I'm going to miss him like crazy, but I know that this is the best... At least for now. I need some time to realize who I am w/o him. Moving out of our apartment is going to be one of the most difficult expieriences of my life. Only akin to moving out of my mom's house at the age of 16... I don't know what I'm going to do w/o him... Which is part of the problem. So I'm moving in w/my best friend and a friend that I believe can be great for me. He's an awesome listener and has some great outlooks on life as a whole. Not to mention he's gorgeous. ;-) but honestly I'm super excited about building an awesome relationship with him and strengthening the relationship I already have with Alisha. She's honestly the best friend I could ever ask for....she's always there for me, no questions asked. I don't know any other person in the world that I can call at any time of the day or night crying and feeling hopeless for no reason and she can make me smile. I don't know where I'd be w/o her... In general, life is just looking up all the way around... I'm excited to find out what's ahead for me... Life, like I said, can bring so many unexpected twists, and I'm excited for the ride....
-Monica
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