day to day...

Icant believe that yesterday I was on top of the world and today I feel like shit... Nothing's really changed, physically, just emotionally... I can't believe I'm really going to be w/o him! I'm freaking the fuck out....I'm in a super shitty mood and I don't know how I can tell anyone why I feel this way cause NO ONE would even be slightly sympathetc for me. No one would understand. I have NO soft landing for myself. I really am going to be completely and totally alone. I don't know anyone who would want me. I know that I have a tendency to to attract guys and they go running the opposite direction. I wish I knew why. I wish they could impart a reason with me before they left. I just want to have a fling.... I want to feel like someone needs me... Ugh. I'm really in a super shitty place. And I'm not sure where to go from here..